Friday, September 23, 2011


Hello readers!! I am sorry I have not posted (not that many actually read this shit) but life has gotten in the way once again! not much has happened since my last post. No big 9/11 terrorist attack went down despite the rumors, although on the CIA facebook page  >>>click for CIA FB page<<<  there are "terrorists" who keep posting graphic images all over it. At first, I will admit, it did scare me a little.... now it's just annoying as hell.

Brian news: .......... He's home :) He decided to leave his trucking job for CR England because they were screwing him on pay and they wouldn't allow him to come home for his reserve stuff. He is currently looking for a new job but with all the schools his reserve unit wants to send him to for the next few months we may have to wait and see. He is still wanting to go back active duty so we'll see what will happen.


We are both currently on rabbit food diet lol lots of fruits, veggies, light meats and water water water. we've also began to take herbalife and started circuit training workouts.

HOLY HELL!! They are VERY intense workouts! We are hoping to see some results soon although we just started so it may take awhile.

Other than that we are doin alright just livin life day by day and praying for things to work out as they are meant to be! I hope you are all doing well and are smiling in life :)

Tonight's Jam: cause this song makes me cheery and smile


Tuesday, September 13, 2011

9/11 Reflection....

Yesterday was the 10th anniversary of the day the world stood still.

Although it has been ten years, it really does feel like it was just yesterday. I remember the day very well. I was a freshman in high school.... 13 years old. I was at home, getting ready for school and heard something on the radio about something going on in New York. I ran downstairs and turned on the news and all I could see was one of the towers with dark black smoke billowing out of the top. I tried to get my mothers attention but she just kept yelling at me to "hurry the f*k up" because I was going to be late for school. The image stuck in my head all the way to school. When I got there it was an eerie scene... Almost everyone was in a room somewhere or standing in hallways staring at the TVs. 1st period was my french class and all we did was watch the news in shock and horror. I remember my heart stopping when the 2nd plane hit tower 2. I remember the tears, the silence, the questions, shuffling from class to class in a hurry just so you wouldn't miss anything on TV. 13 years old and the world changing in an instant.

They say that 9/11 is the "Pearl Harbor" of our generation. Before then I never knew how important the towers were. Where Iraq or Afghanistan were. Al-qaeda, Jihad, terrorism, Bin Laden, Hussein... all these and so many other things that were once foreign became apart of everyday life for us all.

Here I am. 24 Years old. Married to a United States Soldier who has fought for our freedom, the war that began shortly after 9/11. Unfortunately this is a different war, a different time and sadly enough this country is NOT united as they were 10 years ago or even 60 years ago during WWII.

We must never forget. We must always remember. I pray that my children and grandchildren will never experience what we all felt that day. I was alive when the world stopped turning, on that September day.

Tonight's Song:


Monday, September 5, 2011

Regarding the Soulja Tard.....

it's been awhile since I've blogged... SOORRRRRYYYY!!!! Just haven't had much to say lately. My life has been pretty redundant....

I get up. Go to work. Come home and avoid housework.

BUUUTTTT Good news for me- My moose comes home this week! Yay! We (our marriage) has been going wonderfully lately! Brian has decided to go back to Active Duty- well TRY to. He said he misses it way too much so now the plan is to go back. Not sure how long it will take, when, where etc.... So till then he will be trying to find a local job close to home so he can work on his PT and weight.

NOW after that little quick update, here's the reason behind tonight's blog: SOULJA BOY.

OHHHHHH myyyy fucking GOD.

If you are "out" of the loop on this one, lemme explain. "Soulja Boy" decided for god knows what reason, to release his new song "Let's be real" in which one section of the lyrics says "Fuck The FBI & Fuck The Army Troops Fightin' For What? Bitch Be Your Own Man"


Talk about shooting yourself in the foot! Within seconds of this being released everyone who supports the troops and law enforcement community became enraged... myself included. Now I've tried to see it from the point of view of the stupidity of people like him; he's using his freedom of speech.

OK I get that part. But just like the Westboro Baptist "Cult" doesn't mean the majority will agree. Although many people oppose this war, they still SUPPORT the troops, so when you say something offense about the troops that often results in anger, hate and revenge. So as of now I see this so called "Soulja" right up there on America's shit list along with Westboro. Can you say Career is now over?

It's gone as far as the military community requesting AAFES (Army & Air Force Exchange Service) to have his music and what not pulled from the shelves! Now they did it when the Dixie Chicks did their little Publicity stunt (and ruined their careers as well) so this may happen again.

Now mind you all this has happened within the last week or so. it's still "new" so the word is still being spread around. There's a group of service members who are apart of  REDCON-1 music label and one of them STEPHEN HOBBS wrote a 'rebuttal' song for it:

And that's just the start of it... it even has an "Action Therapy" video as well:

Now "Soulja Boy" released his own statement, blaming RACISM on his behalf, that is the reason as to WHY everyone hates him (see link below)........... yea that MUST be it. Regardless I see this as a good way to show those who oppose troops, war and everything else that while you have the right to express freedom of speech: DON'T forget who it was that PROTECTS the RIGHT for you to hate on them. Didn't your mamas teach you "Don't bite the hand that feeds you"????

Tonight's Jam: REAL SOLDIER'S!!! HOOAH!!!



Sunday, August 21, 2011

"Oh Tonight"

I saw this on another blog and I thought it'd be fun to do. Haven't done these since the "myspace" days lol. I don't have much to say tonight. Pretty quiet night. I did realize one thing however.... I miss my husband.


1. What are your middle names? Alexander and Rae

2. How long have you been together? Almost 2 years, married for almost 1.... still feels like a lifetime....

3. How long did you know each other before you started dating? Apparently a while - met at a party- but neither of us really remember that

4. Who asked who out? He did. I played hard to get ;)

5. How old are each of you? He's 23 and I am 24.....eek I am cradle robbin' lol

6. Did you go to the same school? Nope

7. Are you from the same home town? Eh. Sorta. our "towns" are just townships that are like 15 mins apart lol

8. Who is the smartest? Me, duh. Ok, just kidding. We've got different kinds of smarts. I'm a smart-ass, he's "tactical" smart... his intelligence is applicable to real life... well, his life anyway ;-)

9. Who majored in what? He's a major pain in my arse. LOL jk. He hasn't really decided on a major but I believe he would major in military history or some sort of trade. I would love to double major in CJ and family sciences so I could be a juvenile probation officer :)

10. Who is the most sensitive? Hmm... We can both be really sensitive. I am sensitive more often, I think.

11. Where is the furthest you two have traveled together as a couple? To hell and back... does that count? lol jk Probably to Albquerque for the PBR earlier this year.

12. Who has the worst temper? Me. Hands down.

13. How many children do you want? 2 but we've dabbled in the idea of 3.

14. Who does the cooking? Me unless its grilling- he's king of the grill.

15. Who is more social? We are both the type that will just start talking to anyone. That's kind of how we hit it off. We had no friends in common, no one introduced us, him and his friends just started talking to me and I started picking on him and we hit it off.

16. Who is the neat freak? Both and neither. We don't mind keeping clean but sometimes we get lazy. Unless company comes over I go OCD on that stuff.

17. Who is the most stubborn? Ohhh man. We're horribly stubborn people.

18. Who wakes up earlier? Helloooo he's been in the Army for how long!? he's awake before the sun. Me? I'd prefer to sleep til noon

19. Where was your first date? My secret.
20. Who has the bigger family? Me. By like 300

21. Do you get flowers often? More often than I would ask for! He's on top of it :)

22. How do you spend the holidays? We try our hardest to spend it all evenly with each of our parents (his parents, my moms, my daddy and step moms)

23. Who is more jealous? Me. He's very secure, knows I've only got eyes for him. I know he's only got eyes for me but I still will cut you if you look at him.

24. How long did it take to get serious? Not very long lol Some things are just meant to be :)

25. Who eats more? OhEmGee HIM.

26. What do you do for a living? I hang out. He saves the country and drives trucks.
Ok, seriously, I am an Animal Control officer (NOT LIKE THE TV SHOW) and Army Wifey (AGAIN, NOT LIKE THE TV SHOW) and now a new adventure as a truck drivers wife. He is in the United States Army.... was active duty till recently and is now reserves. He just started truck driving but has expressed interest in other fields and possibly going back to active duty.

27. Who does the laundry? I do most of it, but he has helped :)

28. Who's better with the computer? Probably me...

29. Who drives when you are together? Whew that is an arguement. He says my driving sucks, I say his is a nightmare...

30. What is your song? We are BIG music lovers we have so many we love but i'll name off a few:
~"Oh Tonight" -Josh Abbott Band
~"No Doubt About It" - Neal McCoy

~"My kind of woman/My kind of man" - Vince Gill
~"Amen kind of love"- Daryle Singletary
~"Cross my heart"- George Strait (everyone has that song)


Tonight's Jam: A video I had made along with one of "our" songs :)


Saturday, August 20, 2011

Missing "Me"

I know they say you change as you get older. I know it for a fact. The way I think, act, and look all tell me so. It's funny how I look back and see how much I have evolved as a person.

For starters:

~I cannot finish a 30 pack on my own anymore.
~I cannot stay up all day, night and then some.
~I cannot go all day without eating
~I cannot go without sleeping at least 5 hours (even that isn't enough)
~I cannot pick fights with everyone......... hahah just kidding, I still do that.

Now don't get me wrong, I love my life the way it is now. Granted with responsibility comes stress and lord knows we could all use a little LESS stress..... But with my "old" life I lived without an ounce of responsibility. I surely regret that now (DEBT!!!) but then again you can't live life with regrets, just remember the lesson and don't ever do that shit again!!!

In my "new" found self I now can:
~live on a budget
~save my liver a little more everyday
~not go insane on booze, instead I know my limits
~KNOW when to pick a fight

The point is I sometimes miss my "old" self. Not in how much booze I could put down or how much I partied because we all know I could hang with the best lol No I miss my self esteem I used to have... even though it wasn't much. I miss the drive I had,  I miss my creativity, my old body, my wild and silly self. I was always giggling, laughing, smiling and seeing the good in everything.

I keep wondering if life has sucked that out of me? With all of my "mistakes" I have made so far in my life I had to deal with some unwanted consequences and in doing so it seems to have made me pessimistic? I really want that part of me back. I want to smile a genuine smile. I want to close my eyes, feel the sun on my face, the breeze against my hair and feel good about myself. I know I need to reach deep down inside and find myself again. I really do. Perhaps if I find the good in me again, it will bring the "good" in my life again.....
Was cleaning out the bookshelf and found my old "books" I wrote of poetry. Here's an old entry:

Close your eyes
And think of my face....

I'm Smiling

Open your lips, speak with your heart
and you can see my soul....

I'm Waiting

Place your arms around my waist
and you can embrace my uncertainty....

I'm Shaking

Press your lips against mine
and try to catch me...

I'm falling

Tonight's Jam:


Wednesday, August 10, 2011

The Story of the Moose.....

So it was brought to my attention... That my "moose" that I have - has a famous scene in the movie "The Princess Diaries 2". If you're not sure here's the clip courtesy of bootube:

SO. No. That is not where the "moose" comes from. If you haven't noticed, the URL "Teddy Moose Family" is what we call our family. The story goes:

While Brian was deployed this last deployment of course I missed him dearly. At the time we only had Diesel dog who was very bored with me as I spent my time at work, on the phone or glued to my laptop just to get every chance I could with Brian via the interwebs. During the winter, the cold gloomy days were awful having no one to cuddle with except fuzzball here lol. During one yahoo instant messanger conversation (before skype was "big") we had a video chat going and I was cuddled up in my big saddle blanket, Brian asked if I was warm enough? I said no, I needed him to cuddle with. He laughed and said, "What am I? A teddy bear?!" I said, "No honey your bigger than a bear you're like a moose! LOL Teddy Moose!"

And the name stuck.

"Moose" "Teddy Moose" "Mr. Moose" "TM" many nicknames came from that name and I, too got some nicknames following the same name just adding "MRS" to it. When we welcomed Shyanna and Dakoda into our family they too became our "little mooses". I know "mooses" isn't a word but it works lol.

So thats where "Teddy Moose" came from. Now when he got back from deployment, on his way into the states, they had stopped in Bangor, Maine. He bought me a stuffed moose at the airport lol. Little did he know I had done the same here! When we saw each other again we exchanged "mooses" and ever since they have been at our bedsides. When either of us has to leave for whatever amount of time, our moose go with us so we have that little bit of each other to go with us where ever we are.
Silly, I know. It's the little things that count <3

Tonight's Jam:



Monday, August 8, 2011

With a flip of a quarter......

Well as you may or may NOT have been following up with the story here.... Brian and I are going through a rough patch in our marriage. EVERY marriage has it's moments and NO ONE is "immune" from these days or moments in life.

Well I am HAPPY to report that we have gone 2 whole days without any arguing, fighting, or any negativity :)

Considering how awful things were before this is a big improvement. We hope to continue this pattern. I don't know what triggered this good wave of good juju latey and I don't plan on questioning it. Perhaps is me dealing with snot nosed, two faced biznatch Army Wives and given em a peace of my mind. LOL Either way I am so thrilled and hopeful and excited! I can't wait to see him again, although I don't know when that will be

On a sadder note my baby boy Diesel has come down with possibly "Kennel Cough". It breaks my heart when he gets sick or hurt cause I just wanna ease his pain, and unfortunately animals don't have the ability to tell you what is wrong, they have no voice to express their pains and sorrows :(

I have taken him to the vet before for what i thought was kennel cough and they gave me some suggestions to try and treat it at home, which is what i'm doing now = Robitussin. LOL Like a kid I have to chase him down and force it down his throat hehehe... I just pray it works! So prayers for me as well that he gets to feelin better!

My sis and I saw the last of our friends leave today. Deployments are awful I will admit, for ANYONE. Wife, Fiance, girlfriend, friend, sister, brother, cousin, mom, dad, aunt, uncle etc.... it's equally painful and equally hard to watch them leave. I pray for everyone's safe return soon<3

Well I am avoiding the dishes once more so I think i'll actually call it an early night tonight, considering I've only had about 2 hours of sleep last night..... Tomorrow I go back to rowing with the other slaves.... Bleh. I love my job but the lack of pay is really getting to me :(

Tonight's JAMMMMM: