Flip the quarter.........

So our life has recently changed. Plans have changed. The future is not set. Right now its all day by day and that really sucks as I am not that kind of person I like to somewhat have a plan or idea of whats going to happen... but right now that isn't gonna be it. I pray things work out for us and am trying to understand that everything happens for a reason... whatever that reason may be. I just want whats best for us and seems like certain people are cheating us out of it. Its very frustrating for me to just sit by and watch without saying a word about it. ... but I must do what i'm told lol.... I hope it things change for the better right now.....

The "Know it all" .....

Yup. We allllllllll know one. and if we're really lucky we know MORE than one! And i'm sure we've all wanted to slap em or something or other. My question is "Why?". What drives someone to pop off and not even consider advice or  something? Granted one's personal experiences or beliefs may make them biased but come on! shut up and AT LEAST listen to what I have to say!! Get your head out of your *** and just listen..... You don't have to agree just shut up and listen...  and nowadays its not the older generation but young ones who are so stubbon and mule headed and feel they are right and you're wrong EVEN though you've already done it or experienced it.

2011.......

Lord & behold we made it another year w00t!

I cannot believe its 2011. Where are the flying cars!? lol We had a blast new years! Went to our favorite bar with our two best friends and sooo many more memories made! I am thrilled that Brian was home this year and he got to be my New Years Kiss <3

--sad moment however-- and I STILL cannot believe that it happened---

At one point my best friend Victoria & I went to the little girls room. I was standing at the sinks waiting for her and suddenly it dawned on me that Brian would be gone next year... it REALLY hit me and I just started crying out of no where... of course Victoria consoled me and out of no where the slut faced whore bag assistant manager came up to us asking us (in a rude manner I may add) what was wrong. I explained I was okay just upset, well she popped off "then you obviously have had too much to drink" uhhh no bitch I haven't. I explained that I was sad because my husband was deploying next year and she had the balls to say " well you knew what you were getting into when you married him so buck up and deal with it and we don't want sad people at the bar we want happy people" .... I could have strangled her right then and there. I could not believe the audacity she had to say that to me!! WTF!? I just could NOT believe it!!!!!!!

People like that... they just don't understand what its like for us. They think we ENJOY the separation or that we live for it!? yea I don't think so !!

But that is a perfect example of my new years resolution: BE A BETTER PERSON. In every way I can!
Be nicer
More helpful
Motivated
Educated
Laugh more
Smile often
LOVE HARD
Give more
Understand more
Forgive more
Pray more
Treat others better

I just want to be more of a positive person because don't positive actions get positive Reactions?

So many exciting things are coming this year I can feel it and I hope that its gonna be a good year :)

Holiday Reflection.......

So its Christmas Eve and I am writing this from work. Nuff said. As hard as I tried for some reason I just could NOT get into the holiday spirit. But I had no reason NOT to be happy? I have a job that allows me to pay for everything (as much as I despise it here) I have my husband home safe and sound away from war. I have a home and a truck that runs, food in my fridge and clothes on my back. My doggies that I love dearly. Both my parents, Brians parents and our friends. I am so extremely blessed!! So I need to snap out of it ...... 

Packing.....

*sigh*

Brian handed me the "deployment guide" last night.

not cool.

I don't know about other military wives but watching them pack is a horrible feeling. This sinking feeling deep in the pit of your stomache. You want to rip everything out of the rucksack. You want to just cry hysterically but you end up helping by folding or washing or just watching. You have the TV going but your not really watching. Your phone is going off and you occasionally respond. You have the laptop on just to try and distract you from having to watch them. He jokes and laughs but you just don't know what to do, its obvious you aren't finding any humor right now but you go along with it anyways. Your mind is racing. You think of anything he could possibly be forgetting and he says "I know babe I got it don't worry"... but you DO worry. Your mind is filled with all kinds of thoughts. Memories of what the last one was like, or if this is your first thoughts of how your going to get through this.

The only thing I can thing to say as he packs(besides the tears I try to hold back) is ........

"I'm gonna miss you"

WAY overdue post.

Ahhhh yes this one is extremely over due.... You could say we are really busy lol. But I won't hesistate here now.....so we'll start with the updates:

We're married now :) I can honestly say it feels so amazing to be called Mrs. Worley now!

Granted its still taken some getting used to (especially when it comes to signing my name) but i'm loving every second of it! We've been officially married a month and 2 days but who's counting ;) Our wedding, while small, was beautiful and memorable. I cannot thank everyone who came enough for making our day that much more special and meaningful to us. 



Our littlest girl shyanna is growing up... entering her first heat (aw)!

Brian is extremely grossed out but its rather hilarious to see her around the house in diapers lol. He says its practice for when we have kids. So I practice throwing the dirty diapers at him hehehe.......

There seems to be "peace" among my family. well between my parents anyway. My mother's family said they disowned me. Hmmm guess they didn't get the memo where I completely cut myself off from them about a year and half ago. I tell you family doesn't have to be blood related. I am better off with out them and their drama.

Brian is training...  due to leave. soon. NEXT TOPIC.................

We are working really hard on getting outta this place. It has its moments but we've been here forever. There actually is LIFE OUT THERE!!!!!!!!!

My work. Hmm. There's so much I could say about my work. but then again you'd hate it too ;) still applying at any available place to get outta mvrda. got my fingers crossed.. cross yours too please?

Brian and I have been working out as well trying to get ourselves back in physical shape again.

For a while there, I was mentally out of shape? Alot of stress can put someones body through more trauma than you could imagine. I have a hard time dealing with stress and lucky I found a prayer book that has helped me so much. I know that God has always watched out for me. but I was forgetting that he needed that favor in return. So now I leave it all up to him. When something happens in my life now I just think "well okay" and put my faith that he knows what he is doing, even at times when I don't know what I am doing....

Well. Thats it for now. I will try my hardest to do better at this posting thing. till next time....

Love, peace and chicken grease

My Last Time..........

So this is the last time i'm going to be going to sleep as a "Lucero"... Tomorrow I will become Mrs. Worley..... YIKES lol Don't get me wrong... I am absolutely over the moon right now (tomorrow I will be over the galaxy lol) I am going to marry my best friend and soul mate. The kind of stuff I never used to believe in. Whodathunk? lol Now I have gone through so much stress this past few weeks mostly from work and its really starting to take its toll but thats ok.... cause just like everyone has told me before ..... it will all be worth it all in the end! I am full of nerves. Not so much as "what i'm getting myself into" that i'm not worried about... its more "will I be enough?" I know i'm not perfect at all ..... but I know that I want to do my best by him. Honor him, love him unconditionally, feed his belly, and keep a smile on his face even on his hardest days..... I just can't believe its all really happening.... Granted it was rushed, thrown together but it still means everything to me. I know tomorrow won't be anything fancy to those attending but I hope they will enjoy it and its gonna mean so much to me and Brian to all who show up. We plan on saving up for a big fancy wedding ....cause everyone deserves a big fancy wedding ;) I am starving, exhausted, my friggin eye hurts and I have so much to do even tomorrow... i'll prolly be puttin stuff together to the moment it starts lol Wish us luck! Love Peace and Chicken Grease!!!!

--Sunne (last time Lucero soon to be Worley) :) :) :)