Rain Showers............

Yesterday it rained <3 after 100+ days without a drop it was such a sweet pleasure! I loved being able to drive in my unit with the windows rolled down..... taking in the sweet smells of the desert and farm fields......

Today its supposed to rain again.......... that would be nice! hell let it rain all summer! lol

Also today.... Brian & I will be starting "The Love Dare"

http://www.amazon.com/LOVE-DARE-Kendrick-Stephen-Author/dp/B004RA2PXO/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1307038232&sr=1-3

Our marriage has changed. we have changed. we love each other very much - that won't ever change.... but we are no longer in the "honeymoon" phase. They say this is the time when most marriages go through the hardest times. I just pray we make it through it. God has saved me in my darkest and hardest times and now I hope that he can help save my marriage.

Mostly its me that needs the healing. I have alot wrong with me and I need help. Its taken me this long to ask for it- yup i'm that stubborn... but better late than never. I'm willing to change to find myself again. I need that feeling that isn't paranoid, scared, lonely or many other things..... So today is DAY1. And I hope that it will be a great experience because I am tired of feeling like my world is going to collapse from under me. That is not a good way to live.

So.......... Today is a new day. God see me through this one okay?

Updaatteeeee :)

Okay, Okay

I know we said we (as in BOTH OF US) were gonna keep this updated more often.....

Epic FAIL.


So: Gonna try to do this again....

Lets see: Brian is out of the Army- Active Duty anyways..... He is now Reserve -at least for the next 6 years. It's not what he wanted BUT it keeps him in the Army so it's a start... he says he wants to get back in so I just want my husband happy.....

I- FINALLY quit my job at MVRDA :) (times a billion)

I am now happily ACO at DASO ... its less pay... WAY less BUT it's more of what I want and it gets me in the right direction of being a law enforcement officer :)

We gained another kiddo - Dakota... she was given to us by our friend Adam, she is another blue heeler. adorable and very well behaved. has some learning to do but she's gonna fit just fine lol........

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Um. What else.............

There are other things going on buuuuttt not sure if I should say... lol Yes I am blog-shy too many people who stalk... and no not my followers I mean like ... well nosey beeeeches (russian accent for bitches) from my husbands past and mine who just don't know how to go the f- away.... lol

No kids for us .......still. we'd like children but right now we have decided to just wait because with Brian going back to school & readjusting into the civillian world & my new career we gotta wait till things settle. Figure God will say when time is right.......

So thats it. Work & home. Dogs and marriage..... thats all we have done lately... I know lame. Jeez even the Blues Clues cartoons are more entertaining... lol

Tilllllllllllllll next time .......................

Upppeerrrr - date :)

First off............wow its been a long time since i've blogged- my bad :) Alot has happened so I'll update everyone that reads my blog:

1- Mi yob..... Well I can happily say that I have put in my resingation and will be starting a new yob in a couple of weeks!! I'm so excited! YESSSSSSSSSS its a paycut BUT its getting me in a better direction of where I want to go with my career!

2-Brian's yob........... *sigh* Once again I am saddened to say but his CoC (chain of command) have yet to give us a definite answer of YES or NO if he can extend or not EVEN THOUGH many others have extended with a flag on their profile. Its a big long drama mess.... Not the most professional group of people if you ask me. We have discussed a plan if/when he will get out what our next move will be. Everything will work out *FINGERS CROSSED*

3- Health. Mine is in the shitter/ he's been working out

4- Kiddos AKA Dogs- They are here... shaved Diesel for the winter & Shyanna still an attention whore....

5- Family- is doing well :) My mom had her surgery & is recovering well, Brians parents are doing well too busy busy busy folks and my daddy & step mama are doing well as they are busy people too

um....

I think thats it? I got a new tattoo that I looooooooooooove :) lol. We took a trip recently George strait & Reba concert then PBR Ty Murray Invitaitonal... that entire weekend was AMAZING!! <3 It was a getaway that we so very much needed. I think its healthy for a couple (married or not) to get away from everyone and everything to reconnect and find their love again especially after everyday life & stress puts a strain on your heart and soul ......

Thats all I can think of for now folks... I have a headache so i'm gonna cut it here. Please leave responses as I know that someone is actually reading this stuff lol

Till next time............

Teen Mom 2

...... You may or may not have seen the show "Teen Mom 2"

Well its basically a spin off from the "16 & Pregnant" series on MTV that talks about......... you guess it! Being 16 & pregnant..... Now some say it almost glorifies teen pregnancy. Others say it sheds a new light on what these young girls go through........

Ok. Reality check.

Had this been me? Pretty sure my mom would have disowned me, wouldn't be "excited" and sure as hell wouldn't put my story on TV!!! They act like its going to be a breeze and some don't even ACT like a parent! I think its great they want a future and want to go to college but they can cause mommy & daddy pay for everything. Real world folks - majority- have to work anywhere & everywhere to support themselves & their kids... and even that is cutting it close as many are finding themselves on welfare just to get by. The girls on the show are LUCKY. One doesn't work, one goes to school, one doesn't work AND doesn't go to school (she is too distracted by her baby daddy) and the 4th "Janelle" well she's 10 shades of messed up. I know I shouldn't be one to judge but if your gonna live your life on the media be prepared for criticisim.... I feel for the parents but one of the mom's is a total whack job (if you've seen the show yknow who i'm talkin about) and its just a big drama. These girls are not in their right mind to do this and by "right mind" i mean maturity wise, reality wise.... Some have said that once i've had children my mind will change but I guess its too late for that as I am reaching my mid 20's childless .......

either way. ....

I just can't put down the damn remote!!!

Flip the quarter.........

So our life has recently changed. Plans have changed. The future is not set. Right now its all day by day and that really sucks as I am not that kind of person I like to somewhat have a plan or idea of whats going to happen... but right now that isn't gonna be it. I pray things work out for us and am trying to understand that everything happens for a reason... whatever that reason may be. I just want whats best for us and seems like certain people are cheating us out of it. Its very frustrating for me to just sit by and watch without saying a word about it. ... but I must do what i'm told lol.... I hope it things change for the better right now.....

The "Know it all" .....

Yup. We allllllllll know one. and if we're really lucky we know MORE than one! And i'm sure we've all wanted to slap em or something or other. My question is "Why?". What drives someone to pop off and not even consider advice or  something? Granted one's personal experiences or beliefs may make them biased but come on! shut up and AT LEAST listen to what I have to say!! Get your head out of your *** and just listen..... You don't have to agree just shut up and listen...  and nowadays its not the older generation but young ones who are so stubbon and mule headed and feel they are right and you're wrong EVEN though you've already done it or experienced it.

2011.......

Lord & behold we made it another year w00t!

I cannot believe its 2011. Where are the flying cars!? lol We had a blast new years! Went to our favorite bar with our two best friends and sooo many more memories made! I am thrilled that Brian was home this year and he got to be my New Years Kiss <3

--sad moment however-- and I STILL cannot believe that it happened---

At one point my best friend Victoria & I went to the little girls room. I was standing at the sinks waiting for her and suddenly it dawned on me that Brian would be gone next year... it REALLY hit me and I just started crying out of no where... of course Victoria consoled me and out of no where the slut faced whore bag assistant manager came up to us asking us (in a rude manner I may add) what was wrong. I explained I was okay just upset, well she popped off "then you obviously have had too much to drink" uhhh no bitch I haven't. I explained that I was sad because my husband was deploying next year and she had the balls to say " well you knew what you were getting into when you married him so buck up and deal with it and we don't want sad people at the bar we want happy people" .... I could have strangled her right then and there. I could not believe the audacity she had to say that to me!! WTF!? I just could NOT believe it!!!!!!!

People like that... they just don't understand what its like for us. They think we ENJOY the separation or that we live for it!? yea I don't think so !!

But that is a perfect example of my new years resolution: BE A BETTER PERSON. In every way I can!
Be nicer
More helpful
Motivated
Educated
Laugh more
Smile often
LOVE HARD
Give more
Understand more
Forgive more
Pray more
Treat others better

I just want to be more of a positive person because don't positive actions get positive Reactions?

So many exciting things are coming this year I can feel it and I hope that its gonna be a good year :)